Receiving an owl from Edith asking her to drop by and read her column was nothing unusual. It was quite normal by now to just drop by before or after work, so she could read Edith’s articles before her friend would turn them in, or before they got officially published. This time around, it was after her night shift, and Edith had been lucky enough that Darla completely overdosed on green and black tea, that she actually reached that level of tiredness which made her be hyperactive.
She took a seat on one of the chairs in the bedroom, arranging her lime green robes in the process. Darla’d let her hair loose after work, which she now regretted, for her curls were all over the place. She attempted to flip them over the shoulder as Edith handed her the article, but failed. The healer made a mental note as to prepare some hair straightening potion according to her brother’s receipt, so she would not have this problem anymore. “Alright…” Darla thoughtlessly replied to her friend, as Edith said she would go prepare some tea.
Crossing her legs as she leaned against the back of the chair, the healer glanced at the amount of pages. Two. It was a bit long, but not long enough to not keep one entertained. It was a good move on Edith’s side. She then turned back to the front page, and placing them on her lap, Darla started to read. The Ministry’s Department of Miseries A bitter smile surfaced at the name, the former Gryffindor always enjoying the word play. But following that, it was not Martha Ann Jones. It was her own name. By Edith Holthouse.
Darla got up from her chair instantly, papers falling on the ground in the process. She glanced towards the door way, now blaming herself for thoughtlessly thinking Edith was just preparing tea. She didn’t want to be there while Darla read it. And Darla wasn’t sure she wanted to read it. She knew she had to, she knew she was going to, but Darla wasn’t completely positive she was prepared for what would follow. She knew the articles, she knew how Sierra’d felt when opening up to Edith and the world at her own suggestion, at Ranulph’s assertions. But Sierra and Ranulph were ready. Edith was ready. Darla was not.
She felt tears in the corners of her eyes, and reprimanded herself for it. This wasn’t about her being ready or not. It was about Edith being ready. And if Edith was ready, then the one thing she didn’t need was Darla’s tears. She looked down, at the two pages which covered the ground near her feet. Darla inhaled deeply, and biting her lower lip, picked up the front page. The beginning hurt her already. Edith’s sharp sarcasm could not only vividly open wounds, but create them as well. She’d stated in the first paragraph the one thing Darla’d always reprimanded her for: not thinking things through. She’d thought this through.
Darla started pacing in the room, eyes lowering as they continued reading. She’d used the term ‘dream job’. The two words Darla’d thrown at her after recklessly quitting being an obliviator with no plans. The reading went relatively smoothly until Darla’d reached the beginning of the war, Edith’s four options. Her heart hurt a bit knowing which one her friend had chosen, knowing that if she hadn’t chosen that then Darla, her family, the Order could and would have helped her as much as possible. But Edith had taken life into her own hands, and Darla couldn’t even blame her for it. It had been war, it had been cruel, and it had been without hope.
Run. Darla tapped her index finger across the word several times, aimlessly. It was after a few moments of her mind going blank that she realised what her gesture had meant. She’d wanted to hug that Edith, the one who thought that there was nothing left for her in the world that she had to run and keep herself safe at the cost of everything else. She’d wanted to hug that Edith, run her hand through her messy hair, pat her back, and tell her everything was going to be alright. Darla realised that not only that was an Edith she hadn’t met, but it was a version of her friend she would know only though this article.
She straightened the paper, and continued reading. …and it wasn’t until I left the UK that I found someone familiar. Darla stopped at that phrase, and repeated it in her mind several times. Of course, the name wouldn’t be disclosed in the article. Of course, Edith wouldn’t say. The healer doubted if her friend would tell her if she asked. This was all about a version of her friend that she’d never met, a stranger. A sister, in pain, desperate, but a stranger nonetheless. She inhaled deeply again, and Darla picked up the second piece of paper from the ground, placing it on top of the first one.
Her hands began shaking, and reading the paper like that wasn’t an option anymore. She’d thought of going back to the desk, sit down once more, but that wasn’t an option as well. Darla couldn’t sit still. Blinking twice, the witch lowered her gaze yet again, and forced herself to continue reading in the same manner. Walking, slowly, pacing around the room which despite always seeming so big felt now completely asphyxiated and constricted.
Reluctantly, she leaned against the wall and just anxiously tapped her hell against the floor as her lecture went on. ‘Fate worse than death’, Azkaban. Darla swallowed. If she knew the name of this person, she could definitely get the Order track them down and present Edith with a full report about them. But Darla knew what Edith had meant. Sierra’d had that fate, which was indeed worse than death. Her sister-in-law survived it only because she’d had Ranulph by her side. What happened to those who didn’t have someone supporting them, Darla couldn’t even begin to imagine. It tore her heart knowing Edith had suffered through such thoughts, such fears, and such horrors, all alone.
She froze, and the paper crumpled into her hands. Edith had been at Hogwarts for the battle. She’d been there, and Darla had missed her. Her eyes widened with horror, as her breaths got more and more intense. She’d been stupid enough to miss out on Edith years ago. Maybe she’d also been a young stupid kid, a dumb coward horrified of people constantly having her confirm deaths and care for injuries worse than she’d ever imagined before. An idiot of a friend who’d missed out on her sister.
Darla bit her lower lip, trying as much as she could to stop her tears. While she was succeeding, it didn’t feel like an accomplishment. “Change.” The former Gryffindor said, reaching the paper’s end. Edith wanted change with this column, the change Darla’s had on her mind when Edith had quit her job. It had never been about time, or lack of, it had always been that Edith wanted to be part of the change and not continue with an activity that had been in the works since 1692. Edith wanted change, not necessarily stability. She understood that now.
The witch turned her gaze towards the bedroom’s door, right to her left. She wanted to go out, but what she could do? How should she react? Darla finally understanding Edith didn’t mean anything, not now, days, months, years later. “Change.” The healer repeated once more, gaze lowering towards the crumpled papers, and instantly stopped tapping her foot against the floor. If Edith was change, then she had to be not the one to accompany her, for Darla did not understand; as much as she wanted, as much as she tried, Darla never could. This former Gryffindor couldn’t be change along with her friend. But she could be what she’d always tried to be – stability. A pillar of stability in Edith’s life, something she – everyone – needed in a changing world. If she would have her, Darla would become such of a person for Edith.
This time, Darla exhaled deeply, her voice echoing in the empty room. Suddenly, it felt far too big once more. She rolled the two pieces of paper and stepped out of the bedroom, slowly but firmly making her way towards the kitchen. Her eyes fell on Edith, and Darla stopped in the doorway. She was using magic to finish making the tea, and Darla recalled her friend’s own words. Magic is funny like that…
It didn’t take long for Edith to notice her presence there, and even less to inquire her opinion. Darla blinked twice, and gave her friend a slow nod in approval. She lowered her gaze for a moment, thinking it was not the time for her to get emotional; she bit the inside of her right cheek, and faked her hesitation with a hairflip, as to get it all out from her face, and kept proper and direct eye contact with her friend. Darla stepped towards the kitchen counter, and unrolled the papers, placing them as neatly as she could on it. They were crumpled, perhaps the ink had been even messy in a few places, for Darla was sure that cold sweat had gotten through her several times as she read the piece, even if unconsciously and completely unnoticeable to her.
The papers were a perfect reflection of how Darla’d felt when reading the article. She placed a hand on top of the papers, and then gently pushed them in her friend’s direction, eyes glancing in Edith’s at all times. She didn’t move her hand, not even when the papers were in front of Edith. Darla did not smile, nor did she show any sign of emotion. “I am so proud of you, Edith Marcade Holthouse.” The words have been slow, clear and unyielding.
It was the first time in her life that Darla gave such an honest statement. Perhaps the truest words she’d have ever spoken. She took a soft, short deep breath, eyelashes fluttering in the process, as her features softened, and a small, warm smile appeared on her face. There wasn’t any need to add anything else; it was all there.
Edith was part of the change. Edith was the change.