“Oh, okay,” he said, letting the hand that had been halfway to his pocket rest. “I’ll get it the next time, then.” He smiled, trying to force himself to be comfortable with her. She knew how awkward he felt, he could tell by the look on her face. He figured it must be fairly obvious. He’d never been an actor; he’d always worn his heart on his sleeve.
Listening to her describe her work and school, telling him she had the week off, Dean nodded. “Sounds nice,” he said. “Or, well, I don’t know if you like doing nothing or not.” He’d found that many of his generation, himself included, became prone to staying busy after the war. She reminded him then how easy it was for wizards to travel, and he looked down into his cup, embarrassed. “Yeah,” he said. “I forget, I guess—bit of muggle coming through. Or, I dunno.” He shrugged thoughtfully. “Maybe I just don’t really want to leave.”
He gave her another smile as she asked about his art. This was easier to talk about, and she seemed to be interested, for which he was terribly grateful. “Oh, forever, I figure,” he said. “I can’t remember not drawing.” He laughed a little. “It was always my thing. People used to draft me into making banners and stuff.” Dean sipped his drink and savored the warmth that traveled through his chest. “I work under Gregoire Cartier, in the shop on Diagon. Covered in graffiti, can’t miss it.” He wasn’t sure of the shop’s reputation among Tracey’s lot, and worried, perhaps irrationally, that she might think him somehow uncool. He knew this feeling. He felt like he was on a first date with someone he was desperate to impress.
He didn’t know what he’d been expecting her to be. This meeting, their letters, all of it he’d walked into blind. When he had looked into his family he hadn’t known what he would do if he actually found one. And now… If he were to be honest, Tracey wasn’t his family, the same way that his dad—stepdad—was: they hadn’t grown up together, they didn’t trust each other. They didn’t love each other. Perhaps they would someday. But Dean had no idea how to get to that point. This was something completely new.