Monday, 19th January 2004
Zinaida had been extremely grateful when January had come, happy to be back at Durmstrang. The holidays were more tense than usual, though perhaps she’d accidentally made them more tense than they needed to be. The first seed of mistrust in her elder sister had been sown back in November and whether Zhenya knew it or not, the elder Shishkina hadn’t managed to fix the dent in Zina’s opinion of her. In fact, the dubious feelings Zina had about her had only grown, especially after the dinner after the gala. Zina knew that perhaps she was wrong to do so, but she was beginning to wonder if every word Zhenya said to her was a lie, growing more and paranoid about her sister and rival. Of course, Zina would never dare say so to Zhenya’s face, or confront her about her feelings. She did her utmost to pretend that everything was fine in front of her, that this tiny feeling of animosity wasn’t bothering her.
But, despite this, Zina now had the urge to do the same to Zhenya. To deliberately go behind her sister’s back and do something that she knew that her sister would not approve of. She knew this perfectly well, since her sister had made that very clear in November. She had written her thoughts about it to Ilya, but had convinced herself back then that Zhenya had the best of intentions and that she only stopped her because she was worried. Now, Zinaida wasn’t so sure she should have been so dismissive, that perhaps Zhenya really had stopped her because she didn’t want her to succeed, and was just a good actress at pretending otherwise. When Ilya had written back to her and told her that she shouldn’t ask Rusya to supervise this dangerous element, she had listened to his advice and taken his words to heart. He was right. But she wouldn’t dare ask Rodya either, knowing he’d likely have the same view as Zhenya about it. The other artistic flying girls at the school, as much as Zina hated to view them as such, were too much of a threat to have them so openly know what she was aiming to do that season.
There was only one other witch that Zina could think of that she felt she could implicitly trust; Anna. She knew that the other girl was somewhat of a kindred spirit in feeling rather jaded at never winning anything, wanting to push further than others seemed to want them to, and also Anna was not the hugest fan of her sister. This wasn’t exactly something Zina was happy with, of course she wanted everyone to love Zhenya, but she figured that meant that she wouldn’t have to worry about Anna tattling about her attempt whether it went good or bad to the elder of the sisters.
She had secretly asked Anna the previous evening at dinner, pulling her aside as the meal ended into a quiet corner and asking her to meet her early in the morning before classes began. Zina would have preferred having no one there at all, no one knowing (other than Aleksandra Viktorovna, who she had already discussed the possibility with) that she was attempting to be the first junior to land Aglaya Antonovna’s signature backflip. Zina wanted to make a statement, to say ‘Hey, look at me! Don’t ignore me!’ when everyone else, to her at least, seemed to look at her other siblings. However, telling Anna did not feel like the worst possible decision she could make. After all, Zhenya had been right, she did need someone to supervise in case it went wrong, and Ilya had been right that it could not be Rusya.
Awake long before she had intended to be, it didn’t take long for Zinaida to change into a simple leggings, and a sports bra with a jumper and jacket over the top, neatly plaiting her hair down her back and out of the way, before speedily slipping out of the common room and making her way down to the Quidditch pitch. Her heart beat quickly with excitement and anticipation, and she prayed that no one would interrupt them before she had the chance to get as close as possibly could. Zina wasn't expecting to land it perfectly on the first try, she knew she'd have to work at it, but she was sure that with some grit and determination that she would eventually succeed. She quickly went to fetch her broom, laying it down on the grass as she started to run around the pitch to warm up, making good use of her time as she waited for Anna to make her appearance.
@Anna Filimonova