Sometimes, especially recently, Samael didn’t feel like
Samael anymore. Samael was weak and soft-hearted, but
Azrael was the angel of death. Azrael was pure power, and unadulterated rage. He was talented and capable and without remorse. He was single-handedly keeping the Reza family in power, and Samael knew it. There was no competing with his counterpart, at least not in worth. No one cared about Samael Odell, except, perhaps Reed.
While their relationship had had both ups and downs throughout their lifetime, their friendship was iron-clad now, bonded by blood. Not their blood, necessarily, but blood all the same. Reed was the one person on whom Samael could thoroughly rely, and while he tread carefully around the other, still afraid of looking weak, he trusted him with his life. Sometimes he wondered if they would have ever rekindled their brotherhood had he stayed an auror with the British Ministry. He knew Reed had turned his own life around, from petty crime to the International Confederation of Wizards. Reed knew how to play the game despite himself, and he played it well.
Sam had not learned the art of blending into polite society, and doubted he ever would. He was too raw, too temperamental and angry to fake being anything but. Maybe a younger, more naïve Samael had attempted, but even then, he was no-good. There was always something dark under the surface, and it had taken years to come to terms with who he truly was, and what he could truly accomplish if he let the rage take control.
Sam had a lot to be angry over, a lifetime of stifling himself and pretending to be the good son to appease his mother, father, and extended family. This was something that came with the Odell name, a burden that many of his cousins wore as a badge of honor. There were a few misfits now, a few like him. His cousins Lorin and Circe had both been some of Samael’s favorites growing up, and they had both become Slytherins. Unlike younger him, they embraced themselves. He had wasted too long, too many good years trying to be something he wasn’t.
Still, sometimes he felt lost without the mask and cloak and dramatics. Sam was so mild-mannered in comparison to the spectacle that his counterpart put on. Sam liked the dramatics, really, not that he would admit to many. He liked making a show out of his presence. In so-called “real†life, Sam never made an entrance into a room, and instead skulked along the wall like he was waiting to be asked to dance by someone who never would.
That was why, out in public that day, he felt shy, weak, and powerless. He envied Reed’s ability to stay strong regardless of his whereabouts and role to play. Reed had never learned to hide himself, it seemed, and Samael could never un-learn it. He was at their usual spot for their bi-monthly Sunday dinners, a small vegan restaurant in the center of London. He thought it ironic that Reed kept vegan, but knew that it was at least partly out of repentance for his sins and love for Sam’s sister, Phoebe.
Sam missed Phoebe, and sometimes wondered if Reed kept in contact with her. He didn’t know if he wanted to know. He might press too much, might watch too closely, might get angry to find he wasn’t treating the woman with all the respect he knew she deserved. Sisters were a sore spot for Sam, both his and Reed’s own. He still watched Reed’s sister Forsythia through glass, maybe more than he should.
He was reading the Prophet while he waited for him, reading and article that was absolutely about Azrael and knowing that the aurors weren’t any closer to figuring out his true name. He almost was too distracted to notice Reed enter the door, but he sensed the other’s presence behind him, and turned just in time to greet him.
“So, we meet again.†He teased, standing to greet him. “Fancy seeing you here, Stricklander.†He gave his shoulder a pat, and motioned to Reed's usual seat at their usual table. "Your usual, I'm assuming?"
@Reed Stricklander