The nervous fluttering in her stomach was a feeling Ira was unaccustomed to. It was rare that anything inspired such a feeling of light-hearted internal conflict. Every aspect of her life was carefully controlled, scheduled and organized in a way that rarely allowed for spontaneity. And she despised such a thing, under normal circumstances. But today was the exception. She had never done anything like this before. Ever. But there was something that compelled her to throw caution to the wind, a feeling she had chosen not to spend too much time trying to define. As she swung the
lightweight cloak over her shoulders, Ira contemplated her reflection, ensuring that everything about her appearance was perfect. She had told her mother she would be spending the afternoon visiting a friend from school – a viable enough story, and one that would allow her to spend the afternoon away from home, and escape the necessity of being chaperoned. An extremely obedient daughter, she had never once given her mother any cause to believe she would do anything but exactly what she said she would. And, for the first time, Ira had the desire to take advantage of this.
She had a secret, and his name was Zephir King. There was something incredibly intriguing about the young man – something that drew her to him like a moth to a flame. Their last conversation was still fresh on her mind, for she had gone over it in her mind again and again. They hadn’t discussed anything more consequential than politics and literature, but somehow, inexplicably, it made her feel profoundly... alive. She had never expected that. It was an odd thing, to be sure, but impossible to deny. She was completely charmed by Zephir, and yet there was much about him that remained a mystery to her. In fact, she knew almost nothing about him. There had been a point, perhaps, where she might have prodded into the details of his personal and family affairs, but it seemed to have passed her by. The more time she spent with him, the less she wanted to know. What if he told her something she didn’t want to hear? That he wasn’t anybody at all? She wanted to ignore the possibility; he was intelligent, charming, well-dressed and seemed to know his way around proper social etiquette – all signs that pointed to a good upbringing in a decent family. But the fact remained that nearly everybody who was anybody knew everybody else, but Zephir King was a stranger to her. He had materialized seemingly from nowhere at a party a few weeks back, and she had run into him twice since then. It could be that she had never noticed him before, that they ran in similar circles but had somehow never crossed paths. Ira chose to reassure herself that that was all it was.
She had almost,
almost mentioned the King family one evening at dinner, just to see if any spark of recognition flickered across the face of her father. But she had decided against it at the last second, fearful that he would tell her that he knew of no such family. Nobody – not her parents, not Ivan, not even dear Inna – knew about her budding friendship with Zephir King. And she wanted to keep it that way, having the sneaking suspicion that if she did not protect it, it would be brought abruptly to an end.
At the closing of their last conversation, he had asked her to meet him. It had surprised her. Normally, when a gentleman wanted to spend time with her, they went over her head to get permission. Rather than being offended by his disregard for her father, she found it exciting. The idea of meeting him in secret was so enticing, that she had been unable to turn him down, despite knowing that it was something that would be severely frowned upon. And so, alone and unchaperoned, Ira traveled to France to meet a man. Like an adventurous heroine from a work of fiction, wholly unrealistic and completely reckless.
Fortunately, she managed to find the library easily enough. She spared no admiration for the high, arched windows nor the endless, towering shelves of books. She searched instead for Zephir, her stomach knotted with nervous anticipation. Momentarily, she spotted him. A faint smile of recognition passed over her features and she made her way toward him, and when she was near enough that she could speak quietly and still be heard, she greeted him. “Good afternoon, Zephir.”