Isonade didn’t hear storms anymore.
He barely heard the thunder or even felt the wind on his boiling skin. It was all so far away to him now. Possibly worst of all: sometimes it was like he could barely even see the oceans even when its beautiful blue waves were surrounding the ship on all sides. The ocean and this ship were the only things he had left in the world, and it felt like they were slowly being pulled away from him. He tried to cling it, like a child clinging to his mother’s hand, terrified without the safe embrace of the familiar. Sometimes he felt like he was in a daze, as if there was a thick plate of glass in front of his eyes, building a wall between his heart and the outside. He woke up. He slept. He ate. He talked to the crew. Sometimes he laughed. They were all things he had done for decades, but there were times when he felt like it was his first time opening his eyes after a long slumber, like he had been trapped in stone for centuries and was just waking up again.
After so many years at sea, he had learned how to sleep on a rocking boat, even when it was being thrown around in a storm like a tadpole in rapids. Sleep felt so good and he was so weary. He was tired of looking around only to see a captain’s desk without Goro sitting behind it, a deck without Tetsu looking out over the railings, and a bed without Niamh. These absences blocked out what was there, and it pained him to open his eyes every morning and see nothing but what wasn’t. So he shut his eyes. He shut out the world. His body needed sleep to keep him alive, to keep up his strength in the fight that was always raging within, between him and the version of him that he did not recognize.
Ba-dump… Ba-dump…
Iso may have been deaf to a storm, but not even he could block out the call of his ship. He was the captain after all. Dark eyes wrenched open and quickly darted around the room, suddenly alert and clear. The hard scale over his heart was pulsating painfully, as if it wanted to jump out of his skin and run away. He sat up immediately, only to be thrown over by the ship rolling jerkily to starboard. He looked around, at the overturned boxes and mess that was med bay. Now awake, he could hear everything.
Isonade raced topside, throwing the hatch open as he emerged from below decks to set foot on the main deck. Around him, the wind roared and raged like a mighty beast, whipping the choppy white water into towering furies of waves that threatened to overturn the boat. And were doing their damndest to try. This storm had come out of nowhere, and there was something almost unnatural about it. Isonade moved forward, the strong wind nearly toppling him the moment he lifted his foot from the wood. The rain fell hard, almost like daggers against his skin, and he shed his jacket before making a break for the sterncastle, for the wheel.
He didn’t even bother with the stairs, using his inhuman strength to propel himself up and over, landing squarely along the railing. There was a flash of bluish black hair and Iso leapt forward, grabbing the small navigator by the waist and hauling her up a few inches off the ground, flush against him. With his non-bandaged hand he looped the lifeline to her waist and double, triple knotted it into a makeshift harness. He handled her roughly, before setting her back down and pushing her toward her storm runes, some of the slack on her lifeline now wrapped around his palm.
“Exciting? Are you out of your mind, woman?!” he shouted over the wind, grabbing hold of the rain-slicked wheel. With a mighty pull, he wrenched the ship to port, against the wave that was trying to flip them on their starboard side and the ship responded, though sluggishly. Even with his demon arm, fighting against the full force of the ocean took his whole body. Sweat was beading down his face, mixing with the furious slurry of rain battering his bare chest and face. There was clarity in his eyes, dark and focused like the razor edge of his katana, as he glared out at the darkened sky. He was awake now.
He turned to Vashti, for the first time noticing her soaked night robe and disheveled appearance. And even as the pin-sharp rain hit his eyes, he couldn’t manage to close them. Then he turned away, gritting his teeth as the wheel nearly slipped out of his hands. “I can’t keep this up forever!” he shouted, gripping her lifeline and the wheel in his demon hand. With great effort, he leaned them on their side as another wave crashed over them and flooded the decks before running off as the storm tossed them to the other side.
“Which way am I going!?”