Alannah really wanted to hit something or someone – or rather a particular someone sitting across the table from her and sipping tea with a smug look on her stupid face. Fortunately for Charlotte, just being a bitch wasn’t quite enough to drive Alannah to physical violence. She hadn’t actually wronged Al in any way – yet; all she was really doing was just parroting the sort of crap that other people said all the time. Besides, punching Charlotte in the face would be like admitting that the reporter was getting under her skin. Al didn’t want to give her that satisfaction.
The most frustrating part was that there was a sliver of truth to the suggestion that Alannah needed psychiatric help. She didn’t know how to deal with her emotions other than getting angry and lashing out, against others, against herself. The team had in fact arranged for the Seeker to have counselling about her temper (though they’d had the good sense to call it “coachingâ€). Trying to remember those sessions, Alannah made herself count slowly to ten in her head and took a deep breath. This simple exercise did help bring her anger back down to a simmer. She still thought the interview was a complete joke but Alannah didn’t want to play right into Charlotte’s hands. Keep your shit together, Al.
The suggestion that she could be suffering from some kind of Stockholm Syndrome just about set Alannah off again. The idea that she was some kind of victim enamoured with Harlan, her supposed abuser, was just so so wrong. Al ground her teeth angrily but otherwise managed to keep a lid on her temper. “I know he’s just a man. Do you?†She countered sharply with a pointed look at Charlotte. “Of course Harlan is just a man,†she scoffed, “but he’s much better than most men.†Despite his rough exterior and crabby moods, Alannah knew he was just a big softie on the inside. Clearly Charlotte was clueless if she thought Harlan was really one of the bad guys just because he was occasionally short-tempered.
“The real monsters are the ones who talk and act pretty… who will smile sweetly while they screw you over and then expect you to thank them for it.†The 25-year-old had met more than her fair share of nasty types. There were experiences she would rather not remember but still they came to mind, causing her chest to feel tight and restricted as she tried to take a deep breath. Alannah avoided meeting Charlotte’s eye as she clenched her jaw and tossed her head angrily again. She was infinitely thankful that she didn’t have to worry about any funny business with her current Captain. “What is it that you have against Harlan anyway?†She fired back abruptly. “He’s never said anything about you, but you seem to have your panties in a real twist about him.â€
“You’re not wrong, Charlotte.†The comment that she should fire her stylist almost made Alannah crack a grin. Instead she shook her head sadly in reflection. “Listening to what other people think I should do has never done me any good.†At that she did manage a light smile. Did she think people were out to get her? Alannah didn’t subscribe to being a victim but she’d been burned too many times to not be cautious. It was true that she found it hard to trust strangers. She was so used to people making assumptions about her that she’d started to make assumptions about them in return.
“No?†Alannah was momentarily taken aback by Charlotte’s honesty. She had expected the reporter to try and butter her up with false compliments, feign interest in Alannah’s life story. “Good. We don’t need to pretend to be friends then.†A genuine smile arose on her face for the first time during her whole interaction with Charlotte. It was easier to feel a little more relaxed now that she’d completely given up on sticking to the guidelines for the interview.
Now that the reporter was apparently turning more serious attention to what Alannah had to say, she contrarily found herself more inclined to goof off. “Ah shit, I don’t know. You caught me, I’m just a dumb brute and there’s nothing deeper to it.†She fiddled with a teaspoon on the table, briefly amusing herself by imagining how much fun it would be to use it to catapult sugar cubes at all the snobs in the café. Then Alannah sighed deeply and used both hands to tuck her hair back behind her ears. It was a bit stupid to complain about no one ever taking the time to find out about the ‘real Alannah’ and then just cracking jokes when there was opportunity to share the truth. But how did one even begin to explain who they were?
“I’ve never been a natural flier,†she started softly, her voice oddly subdued. “Hell, until I turned eleven I didn’t even know there was any such thing as Quidditch. I never touched a broom until I got to Hogwarts. Still…†Alannah’s face lit up as she remembered experiencing these things for the first time. “I had never wanted anything more than to fly.†She didn’t look at Charlotte, finding it easier to talk if she pretended she was telling a friend. “Can you imagine,†she grinned widely, “a whole new world of magic had just opened up to me, and what did I want to do? Get on a broomstick and go as fast as possible.â€
“I begged my parents for months to buy me a broom – and them not knowing anything about brooms at all.†Alannah chuckled lightly and shook her head. “And then, and then, I wasn’t even any good! Not like the other kids. Flying wasn’t as easy as I’d thought. But I practiced and practiced… I spent every spare minute I could on the pitch.†The humour faded from her expression as she drew to the less enjoyable memories. Noticing a spot of spilled tea on the table, Al began to draw circles in it with one fingertip.
“I never wanted to model… But when I didn’t immediately get scouted for a Quidditch team, I had to do something with my time.†Alannah shrugged in feigned nonchalance. “My dad is a photographer, my mother a seamstress. They were excited for me ‘cause here was a part of my world they thought they could understand.†It hadn’t always been easy for her Muggle parents to cope with having a witch for a daughter but she appreciated how they had always tried to muddle along with things, always supported her even when they didn’t know what was going on. “I didn’t want to disappoint them,†she admitted with a sad smile.
“I never stopped wanting to play Quidditch though. Despite –“ Alannah paused, hesitant to go into detail about all of her rejections, mistakes and regrets; the dark places she’d been and barely escaped from. “Everything. Despite being consistently told that my talents lay elsewhere.†It was hardly like Al was trying to make out like she was somehow inspirational for preserving in the face of adversity. She didn’t feel like deserved a trophy or anything. All she wanted was some damn respect. It had been a long slog to the top so it really sucked when people kept trying to pin her success on her sex appeal rather than her hard work. They didn’t appreciate how much being in the league meant to her after being told ‘no’ for so long.
“I didn’t get into Quidditch for the fame or the money. I’m not in this to be popular. I’m here because when I was a little girl and I learned I could fly, I decided I never wanted to touch the ground again.†It was cheesy. She immediately realised that it sounded really cheesy. Genuine though she was in what she said, Alannah was aware that words were not really her forte. There were plenty of people who would probably be able to express themselves better. “Ah… shit,†Al cleared her throat awkwardly and then laughed. She hadn’t actually meant to launch into her life story – even if it was an abridged and positively-spun version. “Sorry for getting all sappy there for a minute.†Alannah was surprised at herself but not embarrassed. It wasn’t like she really cared what Charlotte thought anyway. The reporter had already made it clear that she wasn’t interested on a personal level.
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