march 2003
Charlie curled up into a sitting position from where he’d been laying, fully clothed and ready to go, on his hotel room bed. That
fucking townhouse had plenty of spare bedrooms but it was easier for both of them if they weren’t living on top of each other. Easier for Charlie, anyway. He hadn’t heard from Kate and didn’t want to muddy the waters by asking her anything that wasn’t expressly related to their separation --
divorce, he corrected his own narrative. He'd offered to stay in a hotel because they both knew from experience that if they were around one another they’d convince themselves it was worth it -- all the fighting and the hurt -- and Charlie would take advantage of Kate’s good nature again, and they’d only end up back here in a few more months.
She would be going home to California soon enough, anyway. Then he could return to the house they’d bought less than a year ago to move his things out and figure out where he was going next. They would sell it, obviously -- Charlie had always insisted the townhouse had been too big, and without Kate in it with him it would feel even more cavernous. They would sell it, and the villa in San Diego, and he would start again.
He’d grown attached to having a music room though -- not that he and the boys had had the opportunity to actually
use it yet. Kate had only broken up with him -- told him she wanted a divorce -- a week ago, so he’d not quite gotten around to looking for a new place -- hence the hotel -- but he made a mental note to look for somewhere he could at least keep
that promise.
Part of him -- a selfish, greedy part -- wanted to beg Kate to stay, to give him another (
another) chance. The part of Charlie that he thought was being selfless told himself this would be better for Kate in the long run -- she could find someone who deserved her, someone that wasn’t going to keep making the same mistakes. He hadn’t fought it when she'd asked to end it, which had only served to hurt her more in the immediate term because it seemed like he was indifferent to the whole thing. He wasn’t, but he needed her to think worst of him -- if she didn't already.
He wouldn’t admit it but the whole thing hadn’t fully registered yet. Maybe it was because nobody else knew (yet), or because there was that small voice telling him he could win her back if he wanted to -- that he could change, if he really wanted to. But he didn’t want it enough and he knew
that much. He wanted his freedom back, wanted to blame his shitty actions on his vices rather than accept any personal responsibility. Charlie sighed and felt his eyes drawn to the minibar--
No, he told himself, reasoning that he could indulge later, after seeing Fflur. He got to his feet and checked his pockets habitually before closing his eyes and apparating to Hogsmeade.
Charlie spotted Fflur the minute he walked through the door to The Three Broomsticks. He kept his eyes down, hoping not to draw attention to himself as he strode to her table by the window and slid into the seat across from her. “Hey,†he greeted her quietly, eyes falling to the teapot that was presently being set down between them; the same waitress who’d set him up on an impromptu breakfast date with his ex-girlfriend last month smiled at him and Charlie gestured at Fflur’s tea. “Same, cheers.â€
His hair was uncharacteristically clean and free of product, and his bloodshot eyes had large bags beneath them. He was, at least, dressed in his trademark leather jacket and jeans. “How’s the puppy?†he asked, keen to talk about anything other than himself.
@Fflur Blevins