Poesy tried her best to focus on her breathing. It was quick - too quick - as she tried her best to hide her fear. Reed wouldn't mind that she was freaking out, his calm demeanour was an asset and a blessing. She swallowed. Her fingers were itching for another cigarette, despite barely touching the last one and letting it burn down to ash that swirled around her feet in the breeze.
"Should I tell him?" The Potioneer asked Reed, flicking her bright eyes over to him. Poesy wasn't sure she wanted to. She'd been single for so long and she really, really liked Hunter. He was one of the good guys. If she explained the situation, she knew that he'd drop everything to help her and wouldn't ask for anything in return, but she couldn't, she wouldn't put him in that position, not if she could help it. Should she tell Torrence, too? He was technically her boss but he'd just be snarky, like it was her fault to begin with.
"Right," she stated with a nod of her head, snapping back into reality. Poesy needed everything she could get. In her head, she mapped everything out. More severe wards on windows and doors, a perimeter around her house, her street, her cafe, her workshop. She didn't leave her potion unattended anyway but she'd have to keep it, and her notes, with her at all times.
Soon enough, Reed soothed her and she looked at him with eyes that were impossibly wide. "Oh good," she squeaked, the feeling finally rushing back into her fingers and toes and making them feel like they were burning. "I haven't done everything I want to do yet," she blabbered. Get married, have kids, get more cats, take a hot air balloon ride, stroke and elephant, swim in the ocean ---
She wasn't a threat, Reed had said, and she offered him a wan smile. It made sense. Why would either Ministry try to kill her, especially since she was the only one able to finish it? There was the possibility, of course, that someone might kill her after the potion was complete. She had a list of rules and regulations on how the elixir should be used and not everyone played a fair game.
Poesy nodded. "Okay," she eventually stated with a nod, letting herself believe it. "Thank you," she told Reed quickly. Her mind was far from at peace but at least she'd stopped visualising horrendous scenarios in her head. She hadn't said very much but she'd listened to everything Reed had to say. It was brave, him coming to tell her himself. If he hadn't, who knew what would have happened? She could have walked right into danger.
Looking over at him, she smiled again, a faint twitch of her lips. Poesy didn't have the heart to tell him that she wasn't hungry and the idea of a curry made her feel infinitely worse. Instead, she nodded. "Please," she told him as she took a cautious step forward. She was unsteady on her feet, her limbs seemingly frozen in fear and she forced herself to move as the pins and needed receded.
Poesy walked on, though her pace was slow. Her head was heavy, like the weight of the world was on her shoulders. She was both exhausted and frantic. Her body wanted to quit but her mind refused. Slowly, she reached out to Reed and slipped her small hand into his much larger one, the act of physical touch had always grounded her in the past and she hoped it would be the same now.