Wini was too cute, he decided. There was something about her that made him happy, and hell if he didn’t want a drop of sunshine in his life. Things with her had been a long time coming. He remembered singing a (albeit terrible) duet with her over the summer and that had been the beginning of them hanging out seriously. Of course he knew her from before. He had always chatted with her and her friends in the common room, making jokes and doing impressions for her. He liked doing the voices. Even if it wasn’t an impression of someone, his accents and ability to manipulate his voice made him great for radio and voice acting. He amused his friends at school with it all the time, and she was no different. They had just never hung out necessarily alone until summer. He had liked her then, too. He had wanted to kiss her, he remembered, one night they had gone for Indian. He had held off, though, because he was pretty sure she had never been kissed before.
Lucky for her, he had held off. The next week, the very next week, he had kissed Circe for the second time in his life, and started dating her seriously. He had never jumped right in from talking to dating seriously before, but Circe wasn’t like other girls to him. She was special, and always had been. He had always liked her, and they had been seriously short-lived for how much effort he had tried to put in with her. He had thought, when they got together, that this was it. This was the love of his life, the girl he was going to marry. It wasn’t until she grew cold to him physically and then became separated from him, emotionally, that he found his heart aching for human contact. Then, he had met Ollie and things had gotten out of hand.
Nothing happened between them. Oliver didn’t think of Ezra like that in the slightest, and Ezra knew that. That had, maybe, been part of the problem? If he had sensed even a sliver of affection coming back at him, just a little mutual interest, he might have thought what he was feeling was wrong. As it was, despite the fact that he would have done most anything the young musician asked him—physically, emotionally, or otherwise—he had blabbed about their connection to Circe and made her feel replaced. She seemed to think of him sharing a joint with a celebrity on the hood of his Mustang more romantic than any date he had taken Circe on, and in all truth, maybe, it was. He certainly felt more taken by Ollie than he had ever felt by Circe. Maybe she had been doing him a favor, and he just didn’t know at the time. There was something more out there for him than Circe could give him. Somewhere, some day, he would find another person that made him feel the way Oliver made him feel, only they would feel the same for him. He shivered at the thought.
Truthfully, he didn’t think that person would be Wini, even as he sat across the table and smiled and laughed as he fed her pieces off his plate and leaned in, mouth open, to let her feed him too. He really liked Wini, but this wasn’t love at first sight. He didn’t feel his soul reach out to her or anything. There was no mystical force pulling them together, but she was nice and she was pretty and he liked her. He wanted to keep liking her, for now.
After feeding each other for a while, the two talked about school, love, and life. He made his best jokes and did some accurate impressions of Hogwarts professors, then he paid the bill for her and smiled. He extended his hand to her on the way out, not forgetting Mr. Bear. This had been a nice date. He was enjoying the aftermath of their tea while walking with her, hand-in-hand through Hogsmeade. He was leading the way to Honeydukes’ sweet shop to pick her out something she might like, when the conversation turned to her friends. He liked hearing about her friends. After a while, she mentioned Jet and he felt the hair on the back of his neck prickle a little bit. She knew Jet? Had they been talking? About him?
“Uh, what was that?†He asked, pretending to have been distracted by something he walked by. “Sorry.â€