Reputation was an important thing. It corresponded directly with one’s power, influence and personal happiness. This was something that Ira had grown up knowing; an awareness that had always provided her with an advantage, and a simple truth to the world that many of her peers either could not or did not wish to see. And it was hard work, keeping up one’s reputation. It required a keen attention to detail, a level of preciseness and perfection and balance that left no room for error. It sometimes meant doing things that one did not necessarily enjoy. She had never had any difficulty accepting that. But this… this was something else altogether. This was a betrayal of the highest degree – both to her heritage and to her very identity.
A charity ball to benefit the Muggleborns affected by the war?! It disgusted her. So much so that being involved was causing her physical pain – there was a knot in her stomach and a gnawing ache in the back of her throat. Her face was twisted in an expression of visible displeasure. Meanwhile, her father, mother and elder brother seemed virtually unaffected by the suffocating betrayal that hung in the air. They conversed easily with their friends and acquaintances, while she stood by, clutching her champagne glass stiffly and speaking very little.
She was outraged. Livid. She couldn’t believe her father had forced her into this. Couldn’t believe that he was giving the family’s gold to the gryaznokrovke filth. They were the perpetrators in this scenario – they deserved whatever misfortune had befallen them. Just because the British Ministry had chosen to ignore all of the evidence laid out before them, suddenly everyone else had to, too. This country was a joke. An absolute joke.
Her father had pulled her aside for a long conversation before the event, explaining that, despite her personal convictions, it was important to support the Muggleborn equality movement when in public – that it would cast a favorable light upon their family. And Ira understood… to an extent. She had witnessed how, in the current political environment, it had become very socially dangerous to speak of the superiority of purebloods. But she felt it was cowardly to attend an event like this. If all of the purebloods were determined to lie down and accept the Muggleborns as equals, what hope did they have at all?
“If you cannot control your expression, Iraida Lvovna Ilyina,” a deep voice murmured in her ear, “then you will step outside until you have composed yourself.” Startled, Ira’s eyes flitted to her father, her lips parting in surprise. She was unaware that she had been glaring around mutinously at her surroundings. He had already returned his attention to the conversation being held, and was smiling jovially as if nothing had happened. Ira stared at him incomprehensibly for a moment before sighing impatiently and stepping away from the group, her movements stiff and abrupt. She hated this, and hated that she had been dragged along. He held her liable for her discomfort?! It wasn’t fair. She had expressed her desires; had never wanted to come in the first place. And yet, he had insisted. And she would never dare disobey him.
Skirting the edge of the ballroom, she placed her empty glass on the tray of a passing waiter, intending to do as her father said and step outside for a moment. But she hesitated near the doorway, distracted by one of the large and glorious floral arrangements. The soft whites and pale pinks of the arrangement complimented her cream-coloured, sleeveless gown, almost as if she had picked them out herself. She extended a slender hand to stroke the soft petals of a white rose. Though the flowers were beautiful, even they were tainted by the hypocrisy of the evening. She dropped her hand in disgust.
A moment later, she felt someone come to stand beside her. Ira didn’t turn to face him until he spoke to her. She lifted her dark eyes onto those of this English stranger, and was taken aback. He was very handsome. He introduced himself, and the name was so foreign-sounding that she almost had to ask him to repeat it. She opened her mouth to speak, and was on the verge of accepting his request – both out of customary politeness and immediate attraction to his handsome features – but decided against it at the last second. “No, thank you,” she said coldly, lacking some of her usual grace. She was in no mood to dance. For all she knew, he was one of the beneficiaries of the treacherous generosity of this so-called charity.