For Orlaith, who was generally speaking, quite rational and logical when it came to studies and what she enjoyed about them, the idea of taking interest in astronomy for anything other than the purposes of its impact on potions brewing and growing plants was extremely foreign. However, she was taking an interest at the moment and she knew it was for no other reason than her pathetically ... and potentially hopeless .. crush on her Slytherin housemate and his interest in that side of astronomy. As such, when Ben brought up the theme of destiny, Orlaith found herself considering his words for longer than she would have under any other circumstance, wondering if the brunette was somehow seeing himself as Orion in this situation. And then wondering what it was that he thought he didn't deserve. And then wondering if that was why he had developed such a reputation for the kinds of relationships he was known for having with girls in school.
"It's different when you become a constellation I suppose. Stars are fixed, and so he is destined to never get what he wants, because he physically can't." the blonde mused thoughtfully, trying to remember not to nestle her head against his neck as she spoke. There was every chance she was reading too much into this, and so doing such an action without a certifiable reason for pushing such a boundary could be extremely damaging to this relationship-- kinship rather, they had been developing, nurturing, for nearly a year now. "But... I think... until we become a constellation, we can never really say we're destined for something-- don't you think?" she asked, turning slightly in Ben's grip so that it was her side connected to his front now and not her back. Her hand remained on his arm so that she made it clear through her non-verbal communication that she didn't want him to let her go just yet.
What this position meant, however, was that when her taller, stockier, housemate responded to her unintentional slip of her feelings towards him, she could see as well as hear his response. She saw the way his gaze drifted, how he bit his lip, and felt the deep desire to once again just know what was going on in that beautiful mind of his. 'He didn't know how', Orlaith wished she could know if Orion was explicitly the 'he' that Ben was referring to. Part of her felt it wasn't; part of her wondered if that was just foolish hope overriding her sensabilities.
Her face lowered as she took in a shaky inhale, this experience was maddening, wasn't it? It was nothing compared to the previous experiences she had had with James and Dougie, both of which seemed so straightforward and simple in comparison to what she was experiencing with Ben. Her gaze only lifted at the sound of her name, but whatever that was going to be about would never be revealed thanks to some extremely ill-timed... fireworks?
The blonde turned back to face the view, settling into Ben's arms again as she tried to engage the rational part of her brain once more. It was officially new years, a happy time for most, but Orlaith seemed stuck on wishing the old year had stuck around a bit longer just so it could take all this uncertainty around the kind of relationship they had, or wanted to have, with it. Was it both of them, though? Or was it just her? "These are for you?" she asked, noticing that the colours of the fireworks seeming to be distinctly linked to both the Danvers and Slytherin house colours. That couldn't have been a coincidence, not here. "Happy early Birthday!" came the sing-a-long voice as Orlaith twisted around once more, reaching up to give the fellow sixth year a hug. "And happy new year!" she smiled into his neck, inhaling deeply again as she considered their closeness at that moment in time.
Why couldn't 2003 take it's uncertainty with it? Why couldn't she start 2004 knowing where she stood with Ben? She hated feeling like this. "Ben--" the blonde began, taking a step back for a moment. "--I have... I have a present." she smiled, reaching into her small beaded handbag to produce a silver, rectangular jewellery box. She held it delicately between the elegant forefingers and thumbs of both hands, her eyes fixed on the box for a moment before lifting them to meet his. Why was she so nervous about this? Was it because Ben had specifically rejected the idea of being a hero and so there was a chance he wouldn't like the engraving on the chained silver bracelet? It simply said 'My hero' on the outside, and the date they had had their first "kiss" on the inside and a love heart at the end. That day was quite important to Orlaith, not just because it had actually been the day of her own birthday party, but part of the problem was that she didn't know if it was as important to Ben too. It had been a dare after all.
Then there was the chance that the bracelet... the more she thought about it... revealed more about her feelings to him than she would have liked. She had enjoyed Ben before then, but that kiss, that moment was the day Orlaith realised she was too conflicted in her feelings to remain in a relationship with Dougie. "I'm scared to give it to you." the blonde finally admitted, her gaze wandering off to the side as she felt her cheeks explode with warmth. Another deep breath, and then the blonde fixed her gaze back on her housemate, bringing the jewellery box close to her chest. "I'm... scared... it will ruin things... between us." she continued, slowly, hesitating every so often on finishing. "So I think... if it's going to do that anyway--" the blonde broke off, pressing her lips together and shrugging hopelessly at the idea that she may very well be breaking her own heart at this moment. "--here." she finished finally, abruptly. As she said it the blonde stepped forward and gently pressed the box to Ben's chest, tiptoeing up to press a gentle kiss to his lips at the same time.